And discovered the journey ive been on these past few months. It’s been long and real. The medical bills are off the walls. I’ve lost friends and myself. But I’ve gained a few things: my soul mate, my best friend, reasoning, my life, and a new vision of my life. Overall ive struggled. No im not cured, I never will be. But I am learning how to survive. Im learning what a real smile and laugh feels like. I’ve learned what it feels like for people to truely love you. I’ve been away from my tumblr for ages. And to see my own progress, it just exaggerates the already amazing feeling I get when I become proud of myself now.